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[Apr. 12th, 2005|08:02 pm] |
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[Mar. 2nd, 2005|01:56 am] |
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I am worth $2,560,566.00 on HumanForSale.com
I don't have any "grad-school acceptance" letters or "thank you for your application" letters, but I seem to be worth a little bit. I mean, at least now I know what to start the low bid at on eBay.
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[Feb. 18th, 2005|12:37 am] |
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 | You scored as Artistic. Congratulations, you scored Artistic. You're looking for the unique movie in the bunch. You've probably watched a lot of movies that nobody has ever heard of, and good for you. You also know good filmmaking when you see it. You just get it, no questions asked. Check out: Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Amelie, Garden State, Lost in Translation.
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[Dec. 3rd, 2004|12:54 am] |
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So, I got a ticket the other day for parking at the WT Young Library without a parking pass. Apparently, even after hours you still need some sort of pass. Damn UK police......but now thanks to this ticket I can park wherever the f I want. I'm totally stickin' it to the man. Now every time I park [illegally] I just put the ticket back on my windshield and there you have it.....ghetto parking pass. I mean who's going to ticket a car if it already has a ticket on it. "That's right officer, this one's taken."
I'm so awesome.
PS.
[i] raymond rocks the Dame this Tuesday, December 7th. Come out, have a drink and, that's right, hang out with greg. |
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[Nov. 29th, 2004|04:59 am] |
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hmmm. i was having a great weekend until about 10 minutes ago when i checked my email to find out that i had 57 new ones from over the break, which just so happened to contain 5 from various people in my Sociology group telling me that our presentation is on Tuesday and we should get started. Oh yeah, and there is also that one from my teacher, flat out telling me that I need to see her after class about my grade in that class. I haven't been told that by a teacher since high school. i'm kind of scared—i mean my heart is beating a little too fast for my liking, but it always does that. But still, for some reason I don't really care. School just isn't doing it for me anymore. I'm close to being out and now i'm screwing up. I have so much else on my mind lately. How can i possibly concentrate on a course that means absolutely nothing to me? I mean, come on, the teacher told us at the beginning of the year that attendance was optional. What does that mean to you? Because to me that means, I'll be seeing you on test days.....oh but wait.....there aren't any tests either......i'll see you on the last day of class. Regardless, this class is a joke and she knows it too.
I felt bad about leaving my parents on Thanksgiving nite to come back to Lexington, but I couldn't sit there any longer. Louisville has offered all it can to me and I've taken advantage of all that I needed. Even as I sat there with my parents, eating my pie, I began to feel depressed. Too many memories surround me in that city. Good and bad. I just felt trapped in a place, or moment that I've been in for too long. I know it's because I've been away for so long and really the only thing that keeps me coming back is my parents. Not even so much, my sister or nephew. And, I always had someone to go home with. There is honestly not one other person that keeps me coming back "home." So this begs the question of where I will be going after college. I have plenty of connections and friends and job opportunities here in Lexington, but should I move on, away from this place too? Will I only be holding myself back? These are the questions I have to answer before May. Maybe this is my problem. I'm already more concerned with where to live in 5 months than working hard to graduate. Fuckin' school. Fuckin' life.
Word of advice: If someone begins with the phrase, "if I tell you something, will you promise not to tell anybody," always respond with no. However, I am too curious and of course said yes. And I'm good for it—I'll keep the "secret," but these two (that's right, she told me two) are going to tear me apart inside. The strange part is, although I'm friends with this girl, I would in no way consider us close enough to confide in the way that she did. I will never understand how some people are so trusting in others. I guess it's a good, wholesome quality, but I can only see it backfiring for the majority of life. Shane phrased it well the other nite when he said to me that there is about 30% of myself that I keep hidden, away from everyone else, and he's pretty much right. He said this as if it were a problem though. I don't see it that way. In fact, if you ever get the impression that I keep some things hidden away, then you must know me pretty well. I bottle things up. Not going to lie. I have my reasons. And, I think I would be far more concerned about myself if I told random people secrets and expected them to carry my burdens with them forever. Perhaps I should feel honored that she chose me to tell, but still...kinda weird.
tired now. didn't even post about what I originally wanted to. must prepare for an early morning to correct my misguided life. |
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| we live in a beautiful world....yeah we do |
[Nov. 5th, 2004|12:39 am] |
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is it weird that the two girls that I am totally crushing on and were referencing in my post a while back about all the good ones being in relationships.....both have recently broken up with their respected boyfriends? i'm freaking out! |
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| i'm the guy over at the olive garden bar sipping cherry coke thru a straw..... |
[Oct. 26th, 2004|02:06 am] |
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after my non-existent weekend, i realized that i won't actually have any time to do anything that's not school or work related until the end of the semester. this is the first semester where i feel like i really need a planner of some sort. guess i should have kept that pda. oops. i keep telling myself that its almost over, but i'm having trouble believing that. arg! work is finally beginning to affect my performance in school too. for some reason i don't care though. this past weekend i was at starbucks for 22 hours. this morning—7 hours. this is every weekend. followed by ever-increasingly stressful cramming on monday nites. even though it may sound as though i'm complaining, i'm not. i realized that i function much better if i am constantly working to complete something. it gives me a sense of purpose i guess.
i got a girl's phone number while working the drive thru at starbucks. this is either extremely impressive, or ridiculously nerdy as hell. yeah........i know.
in other news....[i] raymond is back. we're playing a show this friday at quest community church. obviously this is an all-ages show, so no excuses. we will be playing some new stuff for once. we've been having practice regularly again.....i forgot how much i missed playing. it's very therapeutic. and somehow we managed to mature a lot in our downtime.......as far as songwriting goes. i'm so excited about seeing the crowd response. don't miss out. or do.
and, i'm out.
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| it's funny how life turns out. |
[Oct. 24th, 2004|01:12 am] |
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it's totally been one of those days....weeks...maybe months, i can't even remember. i hate knowing that i have to work in 6 hours, but am unable to sleep. i was 30 minutes late again today. my body is wearing down. my mind is gone. my life.....beyond confusing. i am so sick of school. i know i say this every semester, but this time.....this time....i so mean it. i'm pretty much at that point where i don't care what happens as long as i pass. why can't every class be pass fail? that's all that really matters. right?
i left my bagel at work today. damn. hope it's still there tomorrow.
so here's a story:
i was planning on staying in last nite because, well, i was trying to prepare myself for work in the morning. it was a fine plan—watch movie, sleep. so simple. well, around 12am (midnight—i get confused sometimes) i get a call from whitney to come hang out with her. whitney = one of those girls who i could never have a chance with because she had a boyfriend (refer to previous posts), but yeah, he just broke up with her. so of course i was going to hang out with her. this isn't the story though... so, i'm in my car.....driving. i was listening to ben folds and looking super-retarded singing along when a car slowly drives past me, going in the same direction. i looked over and saw it was a car full of dudes, but the one in the back was staring at me. i thought, "maybe i know him." this was not the case. we got stopped at a red light and there is a cop in front of me and the dude-car is next to the cop. as soon as the light turns green, the guy in the back opens his door and sticks his entire body out to look back at me. still thinking "maybe i know this guy" i pull up and roll down my window. immediately i was thrown back to high school. this guy pulls out the whole, "what are you looking at schtick," to which i wittingly replied, "well you are kind of halfway outside of a moving vehicle." that's right we were both driving at this point. meanwhile the cop is still in front of me, but pretty far ahead. at this point feel free to throw in any drunk douchebag fightin' words followed by myself making fun of him in ways that he couldn't comprehend, essentially egging him on, i guess.
some catch phrases from my road ragin' buddy:
"i don't give a fuck about cops!"
"where we gonna settle this?"
and my favorite...
"i don't need windows" —this one was in reply to me saying, "you do realize that the window in that door can be rolled down."
keep in mind, i am way past where i was supposed to turn at this point, but i continue for whatever reason. so how does it end? with dude-car making a left turn down some street, with douchebag yelling, "you'd better run away." classic.
and how did the rest of my night go? well, after several gin and tonics, i realized that i should have stayed home. |
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[Oct. 14th, 2004|09:20 am] |
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i am lost in your eyes. |
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[Oct. 13th, 2004|03:45 pm] |
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i'm sitting in the student center right now listening to the last track, 23, on the new jimmy eat world album. it's an amazing song (and you know what an amazing jimmy eat world song sounds like) and a girl just ran by me with tears streaming down her face...
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[Oct. 13th, 2004|02:30 am] |
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some random thoughts:
i love scrubs.
I'm feelin' so good today....i still feel good cause nobody saw me fall.......
elliott smith's new album = amazing. (tear)
i showed my true nerdum tonite with correctly answering a trivia question about The Joker's true identity, gaining my team 5 points.
i'm stressed beyond belief.
U2 has an iPod commercial.
sitting at panera bread today, i was approached by three underage girls who talked to me because i'm in [i] raymond...so sad.
on a similar note....our show with jimmies chicken shack redeems itself because it's at a bowling alley. alright!
do you ever wonder why israelies continue to ride the bus?
shane just did the funniest/stupidest thing.
maupin agrees.
where did this cut on my leg come from?
i woke up this morning sitting up.
my antilock brake system works.
my absentee ballot arrived saturday...i lost it.
life is too long.
never is a promise. |
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| "i'm not afraid to bleed and fuck and fight—love is not like anything" |
[Oct. 12th, 2004|01:33 am] |
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it's exremely saddening to scroll through all the numbers in your phone book and realize that there is no one who will understand.
i want to love. no. i'm sorry, i need to love. not casual dating. not casual sex, casual make-outs or casual cuddle sessions. i yearn for more. i want real love again. passionate, raw, explosive, romantic, sexual. nothing else in the world matters, love. isn't this what everyone ultimately wants? if so, why do we do this to ourselves? i live in a time/world/city where everyone seems to want just one night of......whatever they can get from...whoever will. well i fucking won't. i need to wake up knowing that the woman lying next to me is there because of love and wants to be caressed, cuddled and loved by me. i want to wake up, roll over and find her staring straight back into my eyes, exchanging matching grins, complete with an embrace that would stop the world, if only for a second.
this is the love i crave.
this is happiness.
to me.
i know this love exists. i've had it. i've lost it. i've cried over it. i've become stronger because of it. but, herein lies the dilemma. i'm cursed. i don't find single women attractive. i can name numerous girls who i would marry in a second if they broke up/divorced their man. and on further consideration of this thought, it all totally makes sense. when julie and i started dating, she was seeing aaron.
i'm a homewrecker.
now, don't get the wrong impression. i'm not attracted to the fact that these women are unattainable. in fact, i usually don't find out that they're taken until after i've completely fallen for them. it's just the attitude that women have when they're in a relationship. single women try too hard. they have too much to prove. they are overly dressed to impress. i'm not attracted to stereotypes. and most single women fall into them. women invlolved in a relationship have an indescribable quality about them that sets them apart. they aren't afraid. they don't care. they are strong.
and like i said in my last post, i swear that these unattainable women are the only ones that flirt with me. or maybe it's just that i flirt back. i don't know. it's driving me insane. i swear this girl, kris, at work has a secret crush on me. but, you guessed it, taken. this morning i worked with kris and two other involved women. we got into a conversation regarding what happened to "the gentleman." to which i replied, "what happened to 'the lady?' the discussion involved the simple things that men and women do for each other that make them feel special. the overlooked actions, such as opening doors, holding hands, clinging to their arm, etc. kris said that there were plenty of ladies left and the other two agreed.
where?
i looked right at her and asked her where the single version of kris was at. she blushed like crazy. yup. so anyway i'm getting set up with a girl who is "perfect fot me" according to one of the other girls. she said she told her about me already, but she wasn't sure if i was single or not until today. what has my life become? i've become that guy. the one that girls set up with all their friends. we'll see.
i have a feeling this is one of those posts that i'll look at tomorrow and regret.
hugs to all those girls i can't have.
<3
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[Oct. 11th, 2004|09:17 pm] |
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i have so much to say, but nothing comes out. |
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[Oct. 4th, 2004|04:43 pm] |
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| i've got nothing to do today but smile. |
[Oct. 3rd, 2004|02:56 am] |
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hectic weekend thus far....but it's great.
where to start?
shane's birthday was a lot of fun until around 12:45 when i truly became the babysitter. now i totally planned on being the sober driver of shane for the night....because i don't trust anyone else to do it, but shane got completely ridiculous thanks to some guy named Todd (not owner of Todd's, Todd) who repeatedly bought shane tequila shots, even after i told him rather bluntly to quit buying him any more. long story short, i was up until 6am taking care of my crunk and disorderly roomate. actually, to be honest i was scared shitless that shane was going to hurt himself, and not because he was near toxic alcohol levels (maupin), but because he had a bad experience with a certain female and instantly became dangerously depressed. i stayed up to make sure he would see day two of age 23. around 3am, i had to call for backup (thanks jen). i still need to have a serious talk with him about the events that transpired. i'm really worried about him. a few nights earlier he broke down in front of myself and matthew regarding his dad and the regret he still feels towards the way it all ended. i gave him my psychiatrist's card that night and told him to call her. he never will though. i can't keep watching over him forever.
new topic...
tomorrow (or today rather), the new starbucks on richmond road will open to the public...and i get to have my official first close as supervisor. well, sort of. my background check hasn't come back yet, so they can't give me the keys to the store. klint was about to give them to me anyway, but i told him that i was not to be trusted. actually, the new district manager, sam thinks i'm awesome and actually told me that i could really go places with this company because i had good ideas. i know...i'm awesome. things like that mean a lot to me lately, so back off. and a lot of people hate her, which means it's probably hard to impress her.
i worked a 12 hour day including, but not limited to: driving to frankfort to train at a store with a drive-thru for 5 hours, re-re-organizing our back room, building countless displays, driving all over town to steal products from different starbucks' in the area, continuing day two of being a vegetarian and being the last one to leave tonite along with klint and sam. total bonus points. it was so much fun though. i kept joking with klint about how he can't fire me because i'm one of two supervisors who know how to run the drive-thru. there is so much power that i currently possess...until tomorrow when i teach everyone else. damn.
the parents are coming to visit me and take me to lunch tomorrow. i haven't had a chance to go to louisville in what seems like months, so they are coming to me for a change. good timing too. rent is due. they think that i'm going to stress myself out with this new job and they have every right to be worried. however, i'm not stressing about my job one bit...it's this whole school thing that's getting in my way. i'm already heading for overtime this coming week and tomorrow's only the first day of the week. yeah, that's how crazy it's going to be. tomorrow will be fine i think. i only work 4pm to 12am, but it's the turn around and opening at 5am and working til 9pm on monday that's going to kill me. and yes, this means skipping two of my classes. the thing is, i could care less. my priorities are where i need them to be right now.
why is it that only girls that are taken seem to flirt with me? i don't know what this means or how to take this at all. it's to the point where i can tell if a girl is married or just dating based on the amount that they flirt with me. does this make sense? i don't think it does. help.
i've noticed lately that none of my recent posts have been thought-provoking and more or less just replay my daily life in monotonous prose. i don't like this. i want deep thoughts spilling onto the page. i want to lose sleep because i have so much to get out. i want to surprise myself. guess i'm just not depressed enough lately. i laugh at this, but it's pretty much true. when i am depressed it translates to good writing. and even though i don't feel i am contributing anything useful to livejournal lately, i still post because i never get to talk to anyone about the little things that happen to me throughout the day anymore. at least this way i know some of you will stay current with me. kind of sad actually.
"there's beauty in the breakdown." |
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[Sep. 30th, 2004|11:34 am] |
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after a somewhat uneventful weekend, i was beginning to worry that the rest of my week was about to follow the same path. i was in one of those very jaded, "whatever we do i'm gonna be bored" kind of moods. i hate that. but then on tuesday, i walked into starbucks (my new job) and klint (my manager) said he needed to talk with me later. i totally thought i was in trouble...already. so after much contemplating on what i could have possibly done wrong, klint finally had some time to sit down with me and what he asked me was totally unexpected. he asked me if i wanted to be a supervisor at the new store. now i'm not even finished with my regular "welcome to starbucks" training and already i'm getting promoted. i'm ridiculous excited! klint talked to me for a while about it and totally gave me a big head, using words such as maturity-level, goal-oriented, and energetic to describe me. of course i accepted the position, so that means more money, more hours and way more responsibility. in fact, now i have just thrown my entire weekend away because apparently the new store has been pushed up to opening this sunday and i will be there all weekend setting it up and such. i really don't care about my weekend though because i'm finally in a position where i actually care about my job and i want to make the new store succeed above its expectations.
of course, the very next day i was 15 minutes late to work.
don't you hate when you have so much you want to write down, but when you pull up livejournal....you got nothing.
i think i'm going to be writing my next column for the Kernel on the good and bad of blogging sites such as this one. i want to discuss the concept of online communities and their effects on our society offline. if you have the time please post your comments regarding your feelings towards livejournal and why you think it's good or bad for you, us, society. this is my attempt at organizing a test group so help me out.
my history of jazz teacher referenced a "Hot Karl" yesterday in class. only three of us laughed, which poses the question: am i too perverted or is the rest of the world not perverted enough? regardless, he is my new favorite teacher.
also, today is shane miller's 23rd birthday so call/text him and wish him a happy one. and all of you are invited to come out to todd's tonite. yeah, i know, i hate todd's with a passion, but he has his reasons. which reminds me, i have to put some finishing touches on his birthday bash, so i guess i am done beddernetting for now.
come to todd's and make it fun!
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[Sep. 28th, 2004|04:00 am] |
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so i've received no call-backs from the real world auditions. i guess it would've helped to go to the first audition as opposed to just the second one, but i thought i would just wow them with my....awkwardness? the girl i went with, julie, didn't get a call-back either and she was actually supposed to have been there so...yeah.
the other day i was walking down euclid, listening to my ipod at excessive volumes....having a good time when i was approached by two homeless people looking for change. no big, i had just come from speedway and had plenty to spare, but then it just became weird. one of them had a small fm radio walkman thing and she felt the need to compare it to my ipod. "wanna hear mine?" i didn't but she just shoved the headphone up to my ear. i swear she was only listening to static, but i humored her anyway. then she takes my earbud from me and shoves it in her crusty, homeless ear. i immediately thought, "i'll have to burn these now." i have no idea what song she was listening to, but she was straight rocking out. no joke. in the mean time her friend spoke up to tell me of the tremendous bargain she got on the radio. "it was only $1." to which i replied, as i took my earbuds back, "that's amazing, mine was 300." i chatted with them a little while longer about music and oddly enough the politics surrounding it and this only makes me wonder....how the fuck do i always end up in these weird situations? i mean anybody else would have just kept walking, but not me, i stop and get into musical debates with the homeless. this just isn't supposed to happen.
saw a squirrel do a backflip from a standstill position today. this made getting out of bed totally worth it.
i'm officially finished with best buy. the feeling is overwhelming. the shitty thing is that i actually started to have fun again towards the end, but i think it's because management knew i didn't give a fuck anymore and pretty much let me do whatever i wanted for my last week. so it's starbucks or die now. i already enjoy this job much more though. my manager, klint and i get along great (we've been friends for a while) and i've gained the status as "the funny one" to all of my coworkers. this guy, tyler, tried to steal this title the first time i worked with him, but i let him know what's up. also, i work almost entirely with females....very much the opposite of best buy. it's great, not because i'm single, but because i always interact better with the opposite sex. its the metrosexual in me or something.
this post is entirely ridiculous, but i am bored and awake.
i think i'm overly stressing myself out when it comes to girls. i don't think i want a relationship again because obviously i am not capable of sustaining one at this point, but i also don't want to be alone. there's still rachel and we have a really good time together, but something is holding me back. i feel bad and i totally know that i'm using her. i look at her and know that we could never work out. i just know that there is someone better out there for me and i see no reason to settle down with someone that i'm not completely infatuated with. where are you jenny lewis?
i really just need a good cuddle... |
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[Sep. 25th, 2004|02:11 pm] |
Matt and I are going on a road trip to Atlanta to see Rilo Kiley with Death for Cutie. It's $17.50 and it's October 12th. Who's coming with us?
ps.
Wear your hipster clothes. |
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| nights that seem so amazing fade so quickly. |
[Sep. 24th, 2004|01:31 am] |
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this past week has been:
random.
unexpected.
amazing.
eccentric.
comforting.
motivating.
confusing.
overwhelming.
stressful.
memorable.
beautiful.
a blur.
i really love my life. |
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